Scrambled Face Down

Don't end face down Without a single reason to turn over Tempting to freeze Lacerations on wrists Swept under currents of I'm tired Lungs filled of fetal position cries Dragging flesh through hoops Awaiting anything but now Liquor easing face down living. / Throwing up everything only to swallow See what's left in inside Swearing … Continue reading Scrambled Face Down

Six Inch Nails Of Hurt Followed By Nine Inch Nails Of Misery

Running from razor blades Running from any excuse to dive into nothingness Silencing my failures I'm not going to win - Running from sharpened knives Running from myself Cutting this vessel trying to find the real me There's no reason or help - I'm trying to live and love but there's reason to go on … Continue reading Six Inch Nails Of Hurt Followed By Nine Inch Nails Of Misery

Dismay Package

Ears busy mind dizzy anger and frustration calling in sinister calm whispers focus lost it's getting worse Until end I pretend driving off roads back again destination never fully discussed perhaps all efforts a blackjack bust over Improvising among shriveling energy what's clear uncleanly I'm empty pulling light trigger hatred displayed or display of dismay … Continue reading Dismay Package

Quick Break In Hell: Talking To Myself For A Minute Before Lashings Again

I don't want to die but I'm not doing too well at this human thing. I'm done with pointless crying and telling myself it'll get better. Work seems like a cruel level, as if there's any that aren't, of Hell. I don't want to be here. I don't want to die. Feel like a fool, … Continue reading Quick Break In Hell: Talking To Myself For A Minute Before Lashings Again