God, I feel useless.
Work, recovery, sleep, repeat, rolling eyes starting at different screens.
Annoyed with my personality, it feels like I’ll never be clean.
Wasting time looking for different times to waste.
Oh God, will you heal my heart I’ve been hiding from your face.
Always thinking that I can do better but won’t.
Dry land but I feel sinking feelings the most.
I heard you calling so I hid.
The stupidest thing I’ve ever done, I did.
And somehow your arms remain open.
Please teach me to draw closer to you, please.
Once again I feel lost at sea.