I stay away because I’m ashamed
Could have done today better, called on your name
Others around me think you are joke
Ignore your son and the words of life I quote
Am I in the same tree when I miss the boat
My life is winding down it’s plainly felt
Whether I live or die it should be for Jesus not for self
Ask for assistance then ignore the help
Isolated by wrong choices
Tired of the foolishness via internal voices
And I know the world continues to change the definition of a man
I want your definition God only yours will stand
Don’t want to hurt anyone depending on kindness
Soften my heart please remove my blindness
Before my last breath comes and may regret be far
Teach me to love like you do even with these scars.
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It’s easy to hide instead of face fears
Easy to break connections instead of coming clean, persevere
Don’t abandon the vehicle if you engaged the wrong gears
Run into the forest of confusion or find maturity through bitter tears
So God I know what running away does I’ve done it twice
Put loved ones and close friends on the coldest driest ice
Thought rebellion was better than heaven, this fake distraction tainted paradise with more than a little leaven, sin
Gotta hold fast to our confession or the last state will be worse than when we begun, grim
We believe but help our unbelief.