I’m afraid of failing but it won’t help me stand, slow to move, quick sand
Jesus my reasonable sacrifice makes sense, I’m at the gate, or am I on the fence, foolishness has no defense
And I’ve been known for just putting in enough gas to make it to another gas station while blaming inflation or trivial aggravations
I don’t want to appear the judgment seat like well um, head down, shuffling feet
Afraid of immaturity, milk instead of meat, while other brothers and sisters seem complete, I fear being erased permanently, a hard delete
I should be doing more and trying harder instead I procrastinate then falter, flunk pains coming are my prayers garbage before his altar?
So many ways to fall away
Am I running or walking yelling I can’t stay
Failure to execute renewal of the mind on every play
Lackluster, mediocre, inferior
Superior possibilities but possibly lacking drive in the interior
There are so many ways to fall I’ve gotta pray
I’ve flunked every test sent my way
Scared I’m running or walking away
Before the throne of God and don’t know what to say.