James 4:8 – Mark 9:24

Draw close, I want to come closer to you

God, some days, it’s easy, others, I feel resistance

Not on your end, lightening and wind, taking my eyes off of you, doubting is cruel

Brick wall moments that come and go, it’s annoying and embarrassing to crawl so slow in my walk, some days I’ll talk, some days I’ll hide, I wonder why, dry tears in tired eyes, will I ever comply?

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I feel separated from the seen and unseen in a drifting off scene filled with silent screams and God I’m scared this is how it’ll always be, a faithless man trapped in horrors of uncertainty

I believe, please help my unbelief.

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Draw close

I understand I have to draw close first

Surely this isn’t so complicated and yet I’m tripping over air, God I’m reaching out or am I retreating to my lair, receding like young hair under the pressures of life, will I ever trust you or cry every night, yeah I’m still breathing but my chest is very tight, I look for the breakthrough yet don’t see any light

Am I making this harder than it really is, please take my hands and show me how to live, don’t think I can say I’m giving all I am yeah what I have to give but I want to, and if I don’t want to I want to want to.

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I believe, please help my unbelief

I believe, please help my unbelief.

I don’t want to drown in unbelief.

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