Weighted Handkerchief For Judy

Yeah. Yeah.

Sometimes I wake up and feel like letting everyone go.

Get out of my life, erased, I don’t know you anymore.

Dropping every connection, it’s too painful playing, saying, I’ll invest in the unknown smiles of strangers who are now friends.

It’s ridiculous how I’ve been, see everyone I know, leaves in end winds.

I can’t count on a single person, God you know I’m hurting, should I just walk away from everyone I know?

/

I have you, I’m not island, still, I don’t want to risk myself for anyone anymore.

They all leave, and if I got hurt today you’re the only one by my side, the only who will be in the room by my bed.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Is this isolation or advanced security? Should I chase everyone who says they care from me? Stay away.

Dying alone is easier when you don’t expect anyone, know there are no chances anyone will come.

/

Stay back, you liars.

Trying to get my hopes up, and cast me without mercy to the ground.

God, I don’t want it. I don’t want to be tricked.

I don’t trust any of them.

/

Why do they lie to me? Saying they love me? Words empty. Can’t count past zero.

Hold mr Father I know I’m going through a dark alley, a dark valley, all I see are shadows with familiar faces, it’s faith not sight required to breathe in such places I’ll open up to you my God.

They hurt me, I hurt myself.

Jesus I know you can help me, you suffered more than I’ll ever know.

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