Deferred hope
Heart sick
I cannot stand at docks adding tears to the sea
I’m annoyed with my sadness
/
Turn up my collar promptly and button trembling lips
Face circle cycles with a stern face
Kill off the cynical character in his folly.
Play his last moments on an old piano outro
Wash my face and grind my teeth
/
Swim without any surface in sight
Refuse to panic
Live and die in strength
Refuse to express dissatisfaction
Hold my chest in dark closets
And get over myself.