She thinks I just want to play around then discard her like a cheap paper towel
I spit, away from this all, kicking Earth in frustration
Ask God above to reveal who I am, this isn’t a game to me
I’m more scared of you then you are of me
While you label me as all the rest I’ve picked you and hold fast
But you come around slow
Poems written in tears then discarded as my sadness is hidden
I sit in my freezer, jealous of ice cubes frozen in time ready for use
She thinks that I want to ruin our lives as if I haven’t cried for someone to be my last
GET AWAY FROM ME
STEP AWAY FROM ME
RUN AND STOP MAKING EXCUSES FOR PLAYING WITH MY HEART
GETTING ATTENTION THEN DISAPPEARING WITHOUT MENTION OF ANY RETURN
For you my candle refuses to burn I will earn my place elsewhere
Yeah.
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Marry fear
Go have kids
Step away
Go and be afraid to live
Lock your doors hey
Look your doors and complain how no one knocks
Eat your keys
Sand down every doorknob
Then wait
I don’t care I don’t care I don’t care but I care that I cared for you and wasted my time
Why did you say you felt what I felt then left
It doesn’t matter anymore.
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Erase your name further than a stranger’s existence
Forget your face
Back to our own worlds
A forgotten grain of sand on the beach
It makes it easier to sleep
Couldn’t rest while wondering if you, if you were okay
I couldn’t sleep until I heard you say goodnight
Made sure got to bed safely
You’ve moved on and I still need to let your energy go
Go.