War For Jane

I tried to stay with you until the sun appeared

Despite being pushed away and told my tries wouldn’t be any good

But I love you I screamed, into closed ears

I will rather be alone but come hold me what do you mean

Illness of a tormented heart infected with disbelief after taking so much punishment

Surely you, yeah you, deserve to be loved so don’t swear it can’t be

You would be fine at night but when days came you screamed NO

Said I didn’t know how many faults linger within

Earnestly I prayed for you to be healed and believe in purity again

I want all of you

Even your faults

Even your scars

I see more than your self-hatred

But behind depression’s bars you hold onto disbelief and I want you to use the keys to escape they’re in your back pocket, please

Get up and see

No whispered from your exhausted lips

Get away

Stay away

Come and stay

And I’m trying to fight our demons with one hand while holding you with the other

Open your eyes, see I love you more than you love yourself

Don’t look back for a chair let’s keep moving.

Beaten, I lay almost defeated reaching for your arms but they are folded

Standing over me saying you warned it isn’t worth it

Shaking knees preparing for another round

Until you see what I see, I’m going to keep fighting for your life

Thick tears and greater strength than before to bring you into the light

And I love you more than myself

Bleeding out, willing to help

Devastating deception’s grip

I’ll fight all of Hell and resist until you see grace around

You deserve to live

Help me fight the next wave

Even as you rather give in to the enemy’s deceptive narrative

Don’t

Don’t

Here they come

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Worthless

Wasteful

Pointless

Stupid

Whore

Nothing

Dying

Unworthy

Lost

Broken

Poor

Invalid

Shattered

Don’t matter

Why

Why try

Quit

Cease

Fall down and worship the bottle

Razors

Pills

You’re never going to get anything right

God will never want you

You don’t deserve

Anything

Fold!

Fold!

Fold!

But you feel

So it’s real

Fold!

Fold!

Merge with us!

Fold!

Fall!

Die!

Why try

We’ll just come back!

He doesn’t care

No one does

It’s cold

Cold everywhere

Fold!

Fold!

We’ll take care of you

There is rest

With us

You’re not blessed

Trust

In what you see

Feel you’ll be

Wasting everyone’s time!

Just die!

It is not so

I love you more than the enemy knows and our Heavenly Father sent me to bring you home.

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