Split
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You think I’m defective
Lacking understanding, you better pray
It’s messy in my heart
We were acting our parts
I got stuck
You shook off your label without a problem
I thought I had a winner again
After punching my head filled with disappointment and dread
Slipped
Actions no remote can skip
Flipped
When I saw the villain in my mirror
Consequences to my actions became clearer after the fact
Figurative heart attack when my conscious attacked
Backwards, reversed
Now I perceive demons will tell if I don’t first
All because of feelings
Cursed my own breathing
Dealing with loneliness
People lift a glass heart and cast it down with all force
Madness in the mind
Donkey talking to me saying oh you’re gonna get it this time
Smart ass
Nevertheless I learned several lessons
Staying away from human affection speeds healing
Prevent any attention I give unless directed directly above my ceiling
Momentarily stingy
They bend me send me limping in shame
Anyone I care for says sorry driving away laughing loudly
Just another split.
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Corner of rain remembrance in this smog
Resistant fog in front
Month ago I’d crawl to a blunt for answers
Only to leave dizzy
Laughing with some of the same people that hit me
Bigger walls under construction
Encrypted communication in my speech
Still playing silly while using my safe for keeps
Mental protection in this role
I promise this time I won’t have to fold
Show my real self they show cold
Loading mental ammunition stalling
Then release my winter via eyes
Silence anticipating verbal goodbyes
Bet, I’m grinding teeth acquiring dye
Painting my face for warfare
The old me died feces smeared on his chest when he cared
Interest in reaching out like hair formerly on my balding head
Gone.
