Better than yesterday
Sometimes all I can do is be happy I’m still alive.
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Sandstorms
Right before breaking free
So much behind every choice and variable emotions
Just glad I’m still fighting here.
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Gun in hand
Knife to wrist
Pills lined up
Had to save myself from leaving before mission end
Before leaving potential survivors stranded
What about me?
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Better than yesterday
I’ll take it
I’ll take it.
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Moments away from forfeit
Seconds away from spilling my life over shower walls
Now I’m better than yesterday today
I’ll take it
Better than seeing my body limp
Imagined many many times
Cuts with scares in tears when they arrive
Sick satisfaction seeing my blood find drains
I’m not insane
Loving y’all hurts too much
But I’ll take it
Rather love than numbness
Took thirty nine years but I’m focused
I’ll take it.
