Giving back to air
Know nothing there
Cannot explain
How serious I’ve been
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Swear I’m ready to transform
Unfortunately fucking with hearts lukewarm
On the fence people turn my stomach
They want to damage feet until I plummet
Climbing ladders around crabs
Further down into depression
Pity party granted with blessings
Even with them I’m alone
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Rope to impede movement
Holding back never up
Clueless to my dreams I’ll never forget
Saying I’m loved but refuse to read my shit
Too humid in despair pits
Still rocking messages in bottles sting
Looking for acceptance but phone never rings
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If you could see
Inside this active volcano
Pressure
Coming to the surface in haste
Almost to my end
Lining up friends
How have you been
I apologise we’ll never speak again
Found a new tunnel
New grave site
Made my decision
Won’t think twice
Who are you to tell to hold
Grip lost
Even summer is cold.
Won’t think twice
Figurative venting
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Don’t want to be your supporting actor
Prefer another role
Cuddle up to significance for change
Play instrumentals earning mental gains
They always know about me yet strangely I’m strange
Dusty book never earning a second look
Fine but don’t bother
Don’t pretend you’ll bother
Acknowledge an author
Oh my paperwork isn’t together attitudes and pinkies up refuse dismissal
So I write again launching sophisticated missiles
Defenses
We all have perimeter fences
Barbed wire here
Locked up but free here
Other side tinted other side clear
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Giving back to nothing but air
I came from nothingness
Headed back with gifts
War stories.