Of course I dreamed of being special
Blessed from unseen beings for a purpose higher than any human understanding
Demanding prayers seemed a deal, for everlasting dancing in an air conditioned safe place, holiness sealed
Created with unknown stats, a chosen sim, beat other sperm to win, looked upon by saviors as a sure choice to win
Given tools rivaling Thor’s hammer, afraid of the sea but willing to walk it for a gentle voice
Same one condemning my enemies to an eternity of regret for testing a prophet
Clouds designed for my enjoyment bringing focus, boosted dedication, wearing the whole armor, roaring then speaking in tongues, holy water drinks for demons they didn’t want none
But gods, explain why they spit on my skin? Why did they call my nigger then spit again?
Gods, why did they call a friendly child a super predator then do the running man for votes saying Democrats love me but no one does?
Gods why did my side of town look like shit and the government who worships y’all claim my skin color means I’m less than shit?
Can’t attend churches together, keep to your own kind, my kind is mankind, they say naw nigger that’s mine
Silent heavens ripped my faith, even new testament gods were like yay slavery, beat a slave for a respectful base
Ten percent given to my attacker or curses onto my children plus holy disasters, I suppose revelation should have been concluded with thanks master
Of course I thought gods were leading to me to testify, prayers for everyone, especially those praying I died
Gave my last dollars to the poor ended up a forsaken soul like my mother and fuck every single god for her death, painful suffering
The only blessing in existence is when you realize this is a solo effort masked in lies, greed, power, control, false promises awarded after body cold
Gave me the pen and I’ll pick pearly gates letting everyone in, I thought I was special once, seasons end.