Tomorrow Cannot Be Missed

Tomorrow
Is here

The same shit
As yesterday

I await
Rescue efforts

As if
Someone cares

Madness
Is sneaky

Waiting for my
Mistakes

Talking me
Into the grave

My whole life I’ve been scared of not being good enough for anyone at anytime

Cutting
Doesn’t work

Drugs
Run out

Sex
I can’t get enough

Tears
Don’t do shit

But thinking about the moment when I aim and squeeze
Feeling that gentle air blowing a hole in me
Kind of arouses my pain
One fucked choice and it’s all finally over

My whole life I’ve been scared of not being good enough for anyone at anytime

Sad sad but
It keeps calling my name
Like we’re meant to be together

Excuses
Touch my smooth dark skin

Reasons
Flirt with me over and over again

Seeing underneath the pretty user graphical interface
Eats away at the percentage of time I can play like I’m okay

I can see
The formulas behind it all

Nothing computes
The way it appears to be

My whole life I’ve been scared of not being good enough for anyone at anytime
Every time
I’m scared I’m just a fucked up version
Of the person I should be

Voices saying you are never good enough
You were created to be thrown away

Nothing is safe

***

You’re just a waste of space

You’re just a waste of space

GO AWAY
YOU ARE JUST A FUCKING WASTE OF SPACE

DIE NOW AND SEE how it really should be

Nothing

Who’s going to miss you?
What have you done that has helped?
YOU’RE NEVER GOING TO BEAT THESE BILLS
Who’s going to miss you friend?

2 thoughts on “Tomorrow Cannot Be Missed

  1. My friend, I’m here to tell you that you are not a waste of space. I understand the shame, as someone who has been severely tempted by Satan… Seriously, its wonder I’m not in jail). I understand the lack of self esteem. Good job getting your feelings down on paper, this is such a profound poem. Keep striving on!

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