If I Do This

Will it hurt
When I escape
Will I finally stop feeling worthless
Will the bills stop
Will I stop being lonely
Will the feelings of inferiority
Be cleansed from me

Will I be at rest
Will I be freed from stress
Will I be free from getting high to cope

When I wake up one dayou
And finally find the courage to leave
Will tears follow me or will I have a smile

Tweet that I’m alright
Post on Facebook I’m living the life
Then turn my phone off for the last time

I’d do it today
If I knew I would be safe
I’d kiss my kids and wife goodnight

Then get into my car
Play my final playlist and drive away
Until I found a nice place to crash

Will I be free from the torment inside
Will I be free from my fear of failure
Will I be free from wanting to be loved

Will I escape the criticism playing in my head everyday
Will I be free from thinking everyone is better when I’m away
Will I be able to watch the stars unafraid
Of the future

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